It was a year ago, I got told after numerous arguments that this wasn’t working and I had to agree, she wasn’t who I fell in love with, she was this dragon always breathing fire and screaming obscenities at me. I know I am loving and compassionate and I don’t need to be treated in a way that I am controlled by fear. The fear of being alone.
I can do this and I have now for a year, yes I have met many people and some have sparked an interest but in the end I have chosen to remain by myself and it’s not that bad, it’s not that lonely. I see my friends bickering and having fits of rage because their other halves have worked them up and I think to myself. Is this love? Is this what I want to enter into again? And so far my answer is no. Why would I want someone else to control my every emotion the entire day?
I don’t! I love who I am now, I have learnt so much about me, and now I am working on myself so that the next relationship I do enter in is the one that lasts. Now with gay marriages being legal I don’t want to waste my time on frivolous relationships with pretty looking but ugly inside girls just because I’m feeling lonely. No, my next relationship will be the one that stands the test of time. It will be the one that when I enter it, it will be for the right reasons, be with someone of more substance.
No more shallowness of she is hot enough, No, she needs to inspire me to be greater than whom I am and I need to inspire her to be greater than she is, the great only make greatness. I think we all should take time to be by ourselves to find our greatness so we can make more.
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